Friday, October 01, 2004
On The First--Friends, Findings, Feelings
Sweet Thing
Pamela(aka Pamela Jane-aka Alice)
Pam and I met when I worked at Michigan Bell, became good friends, spent New Years Eves together a few times, and she was there to take care of Cindy and Les on the day that Wes and I went to make arrangements to bury my first husband. We have both since remarried and even though our lives have taken separate paths we still have a relationship that only close friends have.
Sweet Thing, of course, is my only daughter and we have shared a unique relationship that is a friendship as well as a kinship. After my father died she became my sounding board, my female secret keeper, and helped to develop further my understanding of the world outside my own.
These two women each in their own way have taught me that if I need a shoulder to cry on, a person to talk to, or just someone to count on they will be there. What more could you want in a friend?
Under findings—We canned plum sauce on the 28th of September. We have five half pints of savory and three & 1/2 half pints of sweet. I am also slowly finding recipe to make for the salt problem but his sugar is a little funky during the transition. The first couple of meals all I could think of was ‘what’s this slop? But if it helps make him feel better it is worth the effort!’ I even started assembling the ingredients in separated little bowls so I can mix them together correctly. What a batch of dishes for washing that makes!!!
Under Feelings—I made it a point to watch the debate last night between Bush and Kerry. My thoughts included the following: I don’t care who was fighting or not fighting in the other war, what are you going to do now? Kerry has a plan—that is fine—will it work? Who knows. We aren’t dealing with the same type of people as you and I. Bush made a few very bad mistakes but he seems only able to justify them (in his mind) not admit he was wrong. Bush says that the election in Iraq will solve a lot of the problems but my heart says that these people are under too much danger to vote or try to instigate a change in government. Kerry says I’ll get out allies to form a coalition to force the issues on Democracy and control weapons development. That fine but he forgets that we have lost creditability in this fiasco. That allies won’t be so quick to join with us and that we are hated with a passion in a lot of these eastern countries.
I feel is sadness. Sadness for the lives that have been lost and will continue to be lost. Sadness at all the creditability we have lost. Sadness that we don’t realize they don’t want to be like us! They will be fighting and killing each other long after we have drawn our last breaths. Because this is what they do, this is all they have known for hundreds of years and they are not going to change. Look at Russia now that Democracy is there. Things are still difficult for the common person there. So why would Democracy seem like the frosting on the cake? Yes it works here but we have our own people in trouble. No jobs or poor paying ones, poor or no health care for many, people finding that even feeding a family is becoming harder let alone housing and clothing them. Yes I feel sadness because my children and grandchildren are going to have to live through this mess.
But more important I FEEL ANGER! Anger that we stand by and let humans be beheaded. That we can’t go and cut someone’s heart out to make them stop. Anger because our politician say” It’s Hard Work” to fight a war, to watch our people get killed, to lead us into a deeper hole of hatred every day. Or to stand there and say,” I have a plan that will work,” when it may not and more blood will flow.
AND MOST IMPORTANT I FEEL HOPELESSNESS . HOPELESSNESS THAT COMES FROM KNOWING THAT THERE IS NO ONE OUT THERE RIGHT NOW STRONG ENOUGH OR SMART ENOUGH TO PULL US OUT OF THIS TERRIBLE POSITION WE ARE IN. DON’T TELL ME GOD WILL HELP BECAUSE RELIGION IS THE BASIS OF THE HATRED BETWEEN THESE COUNTRIES THAT BOUGHT US INTO TO THIS.
So that is my thoughts and beliefs on friends, findings, and feelings!
