In my file cabinet there is a folder for pets. It had paid bills, information on Brandy, Molly, and Spirit. Sadly Brandy and Molly are no longer with me so I really don’t need the folder. I stand at the cage and say there is you and me now Spirit. No need for a file labeled pets. Oh I have the cats, Libby, and Erin which I care about and help take care of but it is not the same. I still feel tears gather in my eyes and a lump in my throat when I stop to remember what I have lost. They were my family especially after Jay pasted.
That also brings to mind people I have loved that are ill, or infirmed now that I can no longer help or see. Yes it is just we two left in this little family of days gone by. There are people in my life that I love and care about that care about me but this is different, good but not the same. I am lucky to have these people in my life and would not trade them. But I can’t quite explain this feeling that I have.