I’m still here.   I read a lot on line but hardly ever respond  With the virus  warning Stay home I find it hard to converse with anyone,  But in my mind all I can think is this is a fine kettle of fish we are all in.  I sit read, watch tv, read the latest on the computer and sit and shake my head in disbelief.  What the he## is going on.

I sit and think but all the projects I can be working on but  my heart isn’t in it. I’m going to change my mind set and start thinking forward again. I’ m 85 which doesn’t leave a lot of time to screw around in.

Well I’ll good night and sleep on that idea.

Where Have I been?  I have moved from one son’s house to another.  I am now in Westland with Les and Anne.  I tripped, fell off the back deck and broke my right hip.   I spent some time in the hospital, more time in rehab and I’m still walking with a walker.  It a bitch getting old.  You can’t do anything without straining, pulling a muscle, stumbling or running out of energy.  I have mastered standing at the kitchen sink and doing the dishes, feeding Spirit, making my room neater but I seem to run out of energy quickly.  (I’m going to have to work on tt.)

Les and Anne took me out to eat.  (It was the first time I had been away from the house since I fell.(except for being check out by the doctor.) I’m really upset with being hampered and a problem for those around me.

I  know I’ll get better –but when.

Today is a can’t do it day.  I can’t tune in the TV ( I normally have no problem.)  My typing is for sh*t.  I don’t know what to do first! Do I work or play!

The good news there is a new railing on the front porch. No more dancing a jig to get up and down off it.   They will finish the back deck when it gets warmer.

No new snow is expected today.  Anne and Les are shopping for boots and slippers.  Honey is in the front window standing watch for strangers.  Spirit has been fed and is quiet in the bedroom corner.

I’m good, my left side isn’t bad as it was(it ls almost normal).  Now  I’m going to the dining room table and work in my Fill It In Book. Things are good here!!

I made Mom’s Chip Dip for Anne’s work yesterday and she said it was a big hit.

I’m looking to a visit from Cindy on Monday if the weather holds.  I haven’t seen her in a while.  (miss her)

I hope everyone is Ok and I’ll visit again.

A good camera can tell what it sees.  This is the truth about this 84 year old.

The smile is there but the vitality is hiding

The red around the eyes is now permanent even 10 hours sleep can not erase it.  I look at the picture and all I can think is I’m finally Old.  Getting better looking is out of the question. All I can say now is I’m glad I’m still on the right side of the grass.

Many things are not right.  Like my left side of my body is weaker than the right.   My hearing is almost gone because without my hearing aid I can hear the tone of a person’s voice but I can’t understand what they are saying.  I know it aggravates they as much as it does me.

My ability to recall what I used to know by heart is quickly fading.  This has to be difficult for others to repeat things, tell me information that I used to know.

Things as simple as changing the battery in my hearing aid is difficult because it is small and I can drop it when I try to put it in.  There are times when I want to give it up and crawl in a deep hole.   Then I see others younger than me struggling to survive and I think that there by the grace of God it is not me.

I am not unhappy or depressed but just concerned that what I can do is enough to warrant crawling out of bed and breathing the air or am I just a problem for my family to worry about.  But I love them dearly and I hope I’m worth all the shit they put up with.

This is an example of all the trees around me right now.  Soon the leaves will fall and the color will be gone.  I going to enjoy them while they are here.

This was the scene on the deck this morning but it did all disappear except in the shade by afternoon.  As I said before this is a hint of what is to come soon.  It makes me glad my red puffy coat is hanging in the front closet.

I think I have everything of mine in my bedroom now so the 3rd bedroom is ready to be used.  You know I didn’t realize I had so much stuff.  (I still haven’t got my stuff out of storage. )  I think I’m going to have a give away soon.

Honey is doing fine except if anything moves out the front window her barking motor swings lnfo action.  Spirit is trying to talk a little also.

Well I have a little domestic goddess duties so I close for now.  Have a great day tomorrow I know I’m going to.

Up at 7 am, looked out the back door and it was white every where.  Yes my friend SNOW falling from the sky, covering every thing outside, and signaling what is yet to come.  I grabbed the camera, opened the back door and took a picture.  (I’ll post a picture later today.)  It is the 7th day of November and Fall’s Mother Nature seems to have gone into hiding.

Yesterday I moved all my stuff from the spare bedroom to prepare for my grand daughter’s arrival over Thanksgiving.  It will be great to see Courtney again.

Well it has stopped snowing, both Spirit and Honey are still sleeping.  So I think I’ll crawl back into my warm bed for a couple of hours more of shut eye.  talk to you later!!

Wow November already!  Soon the white stuff will fall and I will want to hibernate for sure.  Every thing is going well here.  As my fall heals I am able to do things around the house ro help out.  I am well looked after and comfortable.

Next week I will have a land line put in  to keep in touch a little better.  I am doing ok with just one hearing aid and have decided not replace the one.

Today is laundry day and Les is in charge of that.  My bed has been stripped and my laundry basket returned,  Soon It will be clean laundry, bed making, and putting the bedroom in order.

The leaves are falling but very lightly.

I don’t know what I’ll do today so i will go with the flow.

Have a good week end and do something for yourself today.

That is great if you have scales and a tail.

Yep it is raining.   Soppy, cold, gray, nasty, wet with no sunshine, no dry sidewalks, no warm sunshiney feeling to enjoy on this holiday.  There are bags of potato chip in the hallway to  give out to the trick or treaters.  ( But how may will we see on a day like this?)

The trees are wearing their most stunning colors before losing their leaves.  No doubt Autumn is a lovely season to be in.  But soon it will be white, slippery, and cold.  An old broad like me will be stepping very carefully when I go outside.  ( I need a lesson on how to add pictures to my post again so I got to talk to Les because old women my age forget Sh** real easy!

Right now I have a bed to make, a few things in the sink to clear, and my coffee to enjoy.

Well my friend enjoy as much as you can of the holiday.

I’m tired of waking up aching.

I’m tired of taking stock of what needs to be corrected.

I’m tired of  checking on a dog that gets into everything and destroys what she can.

I’m tired when my chest aches when I use my left arm.

On the bright side the new microwave will be installed over the stove today and all the buttons will work with instructions on how to use it.  Then the one over the stove and the one on the counter are out of here.  (More counter space Yes)

Well Spirit is fed, I have my pills to take, my bed is made, and my room is cleaned.  I haven’t quite made up my mind on what to do today but I have time to plan it.

Have a good, happy, productive day because I’m going to try.